idle hands.

described thyself for quite some time. but with this move, there's a new agenda. a new focus. redirecting my energies. positive. at least trying to keep it that way. will admit my first week here was rough. emotional. a lot of tears. unfocused. was in a disturbing place. not saying i wont feel that way again. but today. is that day. was it lou holtz. dont remember. but pick a day. and move on. i think this is it. was quite busy the past two days. a state i almost forgot the feeling of. feeling "productive" for lack of a better word. yesterday i went on campus. checked on a few things. ran an errand for mom. and went to an art gallery. [moreonthislater] today. woke up. had 2 cups o'morning jo, made some calls. got pretty. went to work. [ok so maybe i did a tweet or two in those few hours but i was at work ontime]. came home. checked on school. going to bed soon. seems so long ago the days of secondary school, dance classes, rehearsals, homework, volunteering, maybe an afterschool job, being a busy bee. i loved it. and i miss it. and i want it back. i know i spend too much time thinking about what i want to do rather than doing. my obsession with the internet has a lot to do with it. but im proud to say i havent gone through my blogroll in daaaays.[think i miss 2bd the most/&vsb] a task that takes hours of perusing, scanning, nothing to be honest. i have settled into my new luxurious day job."starting over again" with this schooling. edited stories for school paper. joining/joined the world of journalism. focused a heck of a lot more of time & energy on my career. and my love. [acting&theatre if theres any questions] been a really great big sister. and daughter. so i think. was kind of urgh coming home from work and my lovely mentor reminded me "do not despise small beginnings". right now i am where i think i am supposed to be. might not be where i want to be. but i have an overwhelming sense of "ok". and well i'll take that.

:clearly this blog has taken a trn for the more personal route. hence the end of toirajames. and well something new to arise. in the works. not that i have any followers. [ok. a couple & a few unofficial. hijess!] just 102 posts. and my musings. stay tuned.